DIFFERENT IS BETTER THAN DULL
All of my life, I’ve never really been able to fit in. Not that I didn’t have friends, I just was never part of a “group”. For starters, I was always one of very few black students from first to twelfth grade. Even then, some of the black students didn’t exactly like the fact that I did not grow up in the same neighborhood as them. On the other hand, the white students (and their nosey parents) couldn’t exactly grasp the fact that I lived in a nice neighborhood, and in some cases even better than that of their own. No one was ever mean to my face, but they did make sure to remind me that I was in fact “different”.
Besides the color of my skin, I also have had different interests than the rest of the girls. I loved playing with Barbies and Bratz dolls, but I also enjoyed riding 4-wheelers and going fishing. All of the girls I knew loved shopping, make-up, and dresses, to this day I still hate all three. The mall is my personal hell, I probably wear make up twice a year, and the pants to dress ratio in my closet is 1,000 to one. I’ve always loved Star Wars, and playing with action figures, and going to see the latest Marvel flicks with my dad and brother. I’m not a girly girl, yet I’m not a “tomboy”. I’ve always had a lot of guy friends, but I’m not necessarily “one of the boys”.
Even my music taste has always been unique. Thanks to my parents, I grew up listening to Prince, The Doobie Brothers, and Miles Davis. But as a product of the 90’s I have a special place in my heart for The Spice Girls, *NSYNC, and Britney Spears. The older I got the more expansive my collection of music was. I began listening to artists of all genres, such as Kanye West, Tyler the Creator, Black Sabbath, Death Grips, Daft Punk, Bjork, The Gorillaz and so many others. Though I listen to a vast majority of music, you probably won’t catch me dead at a Taylor Swift or Ariana Grande concert. Both which are popular among girls my age. That being said, it’s often hard to find someone who listens to, or even enjoys all of the aforementioned artists and genres. My parents are relieved that they no longer have to sit through *NSYNC concerts, but they also are weary that their daughter listens to a group by the name of Death Grips (understandably so).
I always thought badly of myself, because everyone made it seem as though having other interests than the norm was wrong. The older I got I realized just how special it was to be “different”. So many people force themselves to fit into a box just to fit in with everyone else because it’s easier than defending your personal choices. But truthfully, it takes more courage to be unique. It took a while to get here, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. I’m happy to be different, because different is better than being dull.